finally being so HAPPY again after so long

U KNOW WAD? i must be the the happiest girl in the world, the girl with the most laughter on 16th Feb 2008.


I m definitely going to blog abt today. and i dun care if u see it or even anyone else who saw it were to tell u abt it. becuz i m just too happy.




























NOPE. I m not attached. is definitely more den it:)


i met him. of course, it wasn't alone. but with 2 more close friends. i m just so happy. the feeling of meeting someone so special in your life. it doesn't matter if you guys are still tog or have broke off for many years already. he is still just special. at least to me.




the day started like this.



6.45pm: they reached sentosa luge and we started playing. i can see that they really enjoyed it esp him. he is just like a small kid. very excited. haha. i m so surprised to see all of them despite our current age still behaving like small kids and the funny thing is that all of them are trying their best to hide the excitement la. but the fact is that i m more excited to see the ways they behave more den playing luge!


7.30pm: i went to bathe while they continued playing luge



8pm: left sentosa island



9pm: reached bugis's korean restaurant



9pm onwards: we walked to suntec city. and then tried to find a place to have desserts since he insisted to treat us desserts for we had treated him dinner as his belated birthday gifts.



10.30pm: decided to take mrt and decide the plan later



11.30pm: reached clementi mrt and they decided to walk me home.


12am-2am: chilled out at coffee shop near my block.



















Now that i nm completing this blog, my hands are trembling from the lack of sleep. and almost every word i typed, there are typo errors. but i still wanna continue for i want my feelings to be reflected truly here before i forget abt them.


Pls dun jump to the conclusion tt i haven't gotten over him. it has been 3 years since we broke off. it has been really long enuff. but it is the feeling of seeing someone so special in your life once before appearing in your life again. but this time as a friend.


The very first moment i saw him, he smiled. and i know tt he was able to accept me as a friend again! do you know how much that meant to me? do you know how long i have been waiting for that day? do you know how happy i was? no words can describe all that. NO WORDS.



Den when he started talking abt his life more, i realised we were back to normal. Guess wad? HE IS GOING TO USA IN MAY AS WELL. BUT HE IS GOING TO YELLOW STONE. How "qiao" can it be?




Although feeling happy, i do feel sad at moments.. i do feel awkard as times. i can sense tt he felt the same way too at same point of time. i can rmb vividly is it when i was eating the korean dishes when i wanted so badly to cry. it was because when i accidentally dropped a piece of pork into another dish, i apologised to him for my clumsiness. When he replied with such a gentle "BU YONG JIN", i just wanted to cry. he was just like so gentle to me before and how come i din know to appreciate him when he was mine. and now such a gentle reponse frm him can trigger my emotions so much.

i wonder why.





I realised it is still him who can bring abt so much emotions in me. is still him who can make mi laugh so much the whole. i was practically doing nothing but laughing. and laughing. and laughing. i was such a happy girl. really happy.



when we chilled down at the coffee shop, we had so much to talk esp when we laughed tog with watching steven chow's show. and u know wad? i really enjoyed the moment and how i wished the time can just stop. just stop. in the past, i always hated it when he preferred to watch tv over talking to me on the phone, but now, how i wish he can watch the tv so tt i can laugh with him




den ty's gf kept calling and ty got to report to her. i simply shook my head. i was wondering how come the gf is so tying him down. but u know wad? I WAS MUCH WORSE. much more fucking worse den ty's gf. 100000000000000000000 times worse. u know how much i regret all these?








after reading this post, i m sure u are going to think tt i haven;t got over him.






































BUT YOU ARE WRONG. i m sure the answer is tt i still dun know. i really dun know pple say tt u will know when u finally meet your ex after very long. but i have proven the concept very wrong. I din manage to find the answer to if i have gotten over him yet. i really dun know.






but one thing for sure tt i know is tt-he still has the power to make me laugh and make me feel so happy.











and more last thing for sure is tt. somethings once broken will never be the same again. and we will never be together again for now.

how sure am i? I am not sure.